I’m feeling kind of stuck these days and I’ve been sitting with exactly what that stuckness looks like. I have conflicting emotions that mean I end up doing nothing.
I’m being pulled by my fear of the uncertainty (about the world, my job, my family, and more) that seems to grow every day, which has me trying to predict the future and choose the “best” path forward. At times it’s hard to not feel frantic and overwhelmed.
In the midst of that impossible task I’m also trying to ground myself in my core values in a world that makes that harder every day. It feels like so many choices I didn’t pause about in the past need to be weighed ever so carefully.
The constant rumination and weighing of actions drains my energy. This means that it’s a lot harder to show up in the spaces that nourish me, like the volunteer communities that I love or with friends and family.
I’m being very deliberate about my efforts to stay connected to these communities in very simple ways even as I feel guilty for not showing up the ways I really want to. I know this connection is more important to me than ever. So I’m trying the best I can.
I know I’m not alone in this quagmire. I see you. What are you struggling with? What flavor of “stuck” are you in? Feel free to share in the comments or to contact me directly. The more we connect and realize we’re not alone, we can find just that little bit more of ground under our feet.
Hawthorn Seed 